I wrote this on December 31, 2016 and it remains true to date, so it was time to revisit this post. I am doing what I said I will, and I am making every effort to #INSPIRE even today, in 2019. To see how and support me, please subscribe to my YouTube Channel here – https://www.youtube.com/szebastianonne
Here goes my post from December 31, 2016.
I hated who I was, how I looked and how I got picked on every single day because of the way I looked – underweight! Instead of encouraging me, my own teachers stopped me from playing any sports because I was ‘too brittle by the looks to risk playing’.
I got picked on, beaten, thrown on the ground, laughed at, called names, shoved out of the queues, thrown out of events right before the eyes of my teachers who not only did not stop the bullying, they giggled with the bullies. My own older cousin, who I saw as my role model because of how strong, confident and outgoing she was, once told me, ‘you almost have no knees, they look like a tiny skeleton joining two pieces of a sugarcane without juice in it’. Yes cousin, decades later, I still remember.
My parents always told me positive things, told me it does not matter, and I was perfect the way I was. But I could see the worry in their eyes and them trying different things to help me gain mass. I did not tell them about bullying because I did not want to break their hearts even further. I always faked a smile and say just the right thing to make my parents think I am fine.
My relatives, friends, teachers, and bullies mocked me that even at 14 I shopped in little boys section. I almost could not imagine wearing business suits & skinny jeans. I wanted to die. I want to end my life. I had not desired to live, but only thing that kept me alive was, “Who will be a good son once my parents get old and need someone to look after them!” – I’d always stop myself from thinking stupid things because ‘I had to live to look after them’.
In 2005, someone I trusted a lot, and who treated me with affection, respect and encouragement pushed me to believe in myself and show the world what I am capable of. His pep-talks helped. I decided on March 20, 2005 that things need to change. There were hurdles, there were heartbreaks, there were still bullies even in the adult world, dating world, workplace who did not shy away from breaking my spirits. But I was a changed guy.
Today, a decade later, I continue to spread the message of fitness, self-confidence, self-worth, being kind to others and paying forward because it makes a lot of difference. It made a huge difference in my life. I witness changes in lives of others, who I can contribute a small amount of efforts or resources for, within my means. The contribution, encouragement and motivation is worth the effort.
I don’t make resolutions but I know I will continue to encourage, inspire and motivation others to love themselves, be kind to others and never give up, because when you stand up for yourselves, life changes and you become the master of your own destiny.
In 2017, I am making more efforts to help those struggling with bullied, mental health, physical challenges and I cannot wait to share my journey with everyone. I hope you will join me in this little effort, in any small way you can!
You can begin with liking my new page Szebastian Onne that will focus on changing, saving and motivating lives of young people and adults to create a message of self-worth, kindness towards others and paying forward when we can.
I am #ReadyFor2017, are YOU?